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Here to complain. Dun wanna feel pain, not that i’m here. But if i dun complain won’t u just feel depressed? Depression comes from Opression. Indeed probably i’ve been opressed several times-frens, fam..etc. What u’d expect, we dun live in a perfect world. How can i not feel pain. People inflict pain to u in lotsa ways, the subtle grin, the whispers, the cold glances they give u. Society is evil, i’ve been in it, i’ve succumbed into their evilness before.

It’s good to make frens, but being too friendly is not a good idea. The last thing u want is ur new cd being borrowed and given back after 5 yrs..haha…it’s not even funny.But i dun blame them, i blame their upbringing. Uneducated thinking brings uneducated actions. Like racism, u dun do it volunteerily, people force u into being one..think abt it.

Guess wat after 2 years in college, i still dunno wat i wanna major in..any1 please, give sum suggestions…hmm, i wonder wat i can be in the future, wat do i look suitable for, this is so irrelevant, but really, i can’t think anymore, the more i do, the more i get confused. Pharmacy was wat i was thinking, but after looking at this guy working in the pharmacy, he looks so depressed, stressed out, no offence to pre-pharm students. But really, the working environment is just not for me, it’s so enclosed. I think i wanna have my own cubicle, yet again maybe not, an office sounds nice..i dunno. Argghhhhhhh……i’m going in circles trying to think abt wat i should major in…i’m running out of time.

So, i just watched x-men 3 and it was awesome!!!Well, all i can say is dat it is definately  THE LAST STAND. Sheeh..so many twists and so many ppl well….let’s just say, didnt make it to the end. Yikes, as soon as the movie ended, we all left our seats and i TOTALLY REGRETTED IT!!Reason- There were more scenes showing afte the credits…something important to understand the character/movie..i dunno, since we were in a rush or too stupid to at least wait a bit longer now, i’ll have to watch it again, not like i’m forced to…huhuhuuh. My cousin who’s like 11, was totally psyched abt the movie but there was this scene dat he and I totally agree dat it was kinda disturbing-Something to do with razors or blades..well, sharp objects being done to ur body-SELF MUTILATION …poor kiddo…and ewwww.

Anyway, go watch the movie, it’s totally worth it!

Drunk and confused is not the way to write a blog, just kidding, like i even dare to hold a bottle of wine, maybe just admire it by far. Drinking alcohol is the equivalent of drinking a bottle of mercury to me, somehow my immune system crashes with a lot of things.

I was em, watching this jdorama-Majo no Jouken, it’s interesting. Bout a teacher falling in love with her student, though they’re only 10 yrs apart, the boy wasn’t legal. Well, society don’t accept them and accused the teacher of seducting her student, Hikaru Kurosawa, played by Hideaki Takizawa. I loved the story line cos it’s always in the news bt how it’s illegal for a teacher to fall in love with her/his student. Okie, if the teach was an old guy, he’s definately a perv to me, but if it’s a young teach i dun think i’m surprised. Love come in all sizes, species..haha, i mean age, gender, and blah..so who are we to say their kind of love is wrong?

i could go on forever bt this…but i hate the fact we live in the society with stupid rules. So embarrased to do things we want to do, we have to live the way society wants us. How we are expected, preceived….ohh, how predictable all our lives are. Once or twice i see ppl do something out of this world and i loove it. Like try wearing weird clothes or just wear a big hat and still at the back of our mind we’ll be wandering wat other ppl is thinking of us. How judgemental of them…

Just for once, i wish money didnt existed, vanity wasn’t as important, status and stupid hierarchies disappear…wouldn’t it be fun to live in a cave like the olden days? Haha..well, with our intelligence still intact though.Anyway, just a thought…

Studying is not so hard, it’s concentrating dat’s the prob. Well, in my case. Ppl always ask me wat’s the best way to study, i certaintly can’t tell, but it differs from one another. Mine is to study every 15 mins and then do a little exercise or yoga watever u want, then another 15 mins. Sheeh, 15 mins is already like an eternity. I can barely spend 2 hrs on my book. Time flies faster when ur watching tv than reading a book. Maybe  time is cheating me without me knowing it..haha…funny though.

Well..no more crap is going through my mind, no surprise, it’s 12.22 am and sppose to be studying. Doing this blog thing is just my excuse to procrastinate..WAY TO GO BLOG!! Okie…i’m out!

I got 20 mins left before my english class starts and it’ s either i make it or i dont. Wat am i talking abt. Bear with me while i explain my "burden". My teacher asked us to do a rebuttal against anything we fell compelled to rebutt. The catch is..it must include all the stuff we learned like fallacies and euphemisms..and definitional concern..and more crap. Well, it helped us a lot in deciphering wat newspapers are poisining us with and justifying the horrific.

Anyway..i didnt do my draft and wat do u know..neither did 10 of the ppl in the class. So , my teacher was so pissed of..she was laughing histerically…dat is the scarriest i have seen. So she kicked us out of the class and it hit me at that point dat she had categorized me, a vry hardworking student, a student who gives everything she has, who will do anything to be on the teacher’s good side, with the "lazy and irresponsible" students. I felt like there was this huge gray cloud hanging above me the whole day. I feel crappy and overloaded with homework….i couldnt bare it any longer. So, after i took a nap, i woke up, searched for all the newspapers in the dustbin (mind u, ppl will think i’m a bum, the look, grungy clothes)…pretty funny if u could visualize. I was becoming hysterical myself. I looked everywhere..the whole place was a mess…Prayed to God, let me find something to rebut..i don’t care abt anything else, just let me find an article…heck if it was abt medicinal properties found in bird poop, i dont care.

Alas,…..i found one….Thankgod. I only had 3 hrs to do this..but my mind was so blurry and coulnt function well at dat time. So i decided to open up my laptop and wat do u know" Bibi is on9"…hahah..time to chat away…So, i abandoned my work for a little while to update bibi with some juicy stuff..hehehe…

And then continued my work till 1am..

So…30 mins ago..in sch at 12.00 pm i actually finished my homework. This has taught me that being dumb in ENG 4 is not going to work. Luck plays a huge role in this class..remember, i was praying to God, he’ll let me find a good article..and no, i didnt no rebut abt some bird’s poop but actually abt some guy who doesn’t agree with ppl who can’t speak English yet they are granted a US citizenship………Phew…

It’s fate, if u want something so badly u’ll get it in the end. I believe THIS is so. I was nagging for days to anyone that crosses my path that i wanted the LARUKU cd. So fate decided to help me in obtaining this cd. Yeah, to ppl who’s not a fan, prob think "wat the heck". Anyway, so we went to San Francisco to eat seafood again..not such a big fan of their cooking. Nothing beats Malaysian food. I bet every Malaysian agrees with me. Anyhoo, so my frend told us we had to wait a bit longer, so y not drop by this Chinese mall nearby. Alas, there’s a shop selling a lot of anime. And as the saying goes, where there’s anime there’s a lot of otaku hehe..made it up on the spot.. So, i found the cd, but hell, cos so much but i was unpatient. Borrowed some money since i dressed up so poorly and didnt bring any cash with me. Prob i sorta look like a bum even, hehe. So got my cd and a huge smile could be seen on my kao(face)..

Just got back from sch, and got my midterm Jap test. Yokatta, everyone did vry well, almost everyone got A in their test . I did pretty well myself but was quite annoyed at a silly mistake i made. Anyway, should pat my back a little bit, i did study quite a lot for this test, plus i got 2 great teachers/student who taught me Japanese. Oh ya, thanks to Laruku too..what’ll do without them?

I’m having prob with choosing my major. I know some ppl dun even have a choice but i dun wanna end up regretting it. When we were small, we use to think big, hehe–I wanna be a doctor, i wanna be a lawyer, so typical of us. What do kids know, eh. Now, everyone’s going into liberal arts. I guess everyone wants to stay out of math. It’s a pain in the butt.

The days are going much more slower than i thought. I can’t wait  till the fall semester ends and go back. My friend, Bibiana and i thought of going  to KL and have fun,Girls only.. I can’t wait to spend some o-kane.

Dont u just hate dreams esp when u have a big test tomorrow and u need all the sleep u can get. Believe me, when ur dreaming , it’s not sleeping. It takes so much energy just to project that visual graphics in ur head. I usually remember the things i dream abt and although it’s pleasant i get a headache after that and i end up having to take a power nap after school.

Driving…y izzit so difficult. Probably  i’m the only person in the whole wide world who complains abt driving. I guess i’m like some ppl who likes to cover their bases before doing anything . Anyway, my fren told me he bought a car for $300. He said it was a 198? and it was a POS. Yeah, i was wondering wow, sounds nice eh, then he was laughing and said " ur not getting it" and later he explained POS wat "piece-of-shit". Hahah….

Eh, i just found out they have ‘PEARL DRINKS" selling here. Wonderful yet extremely sweet and expensive. Like i suspected the place is totally chinesized(?) Cos the music that was blasting from the stereo is from the group TWINS & SHE. So, it’s pretty weird, it feels like ur in Taiwan or Hong Kong..Any Japanese shop i can find??? Hehe….

Wow, i had an amazing day. First off, i went to Japantown with my aunt and our "tour guide" Ant, hhaha.He’s so into Aya Ueta!! He wanted to buy Azumi 2 and some other Jap dvds. So it was cool, i wanted to buy Hyde’s newest single and Laruku’s one too, but guess wat…all SOLD OUT!! Hey, i didn’t even know they were DAT famous…hehe.Haii,when did  Hyde become a household name? I still remember  the days when ppl call me and my cousin(Miruku) crazy for liking a band of dat genre or just cos they were a bit eccentric.But to me, Hyde..heheh..yeah, he’s a bishounen, but he was more to dat that his pretty face..i think he has a good voice and is a  good poet too. Now i guess ppl realize their great potential in making songs..and i get fed up when ppl say: Hey, u know the band Laruku, they’re cool!..Uish..anyway, i’m glad too….i have the tendency to contradict everything i say…ish ish..bad trait…So, after failing to obtain their Awake cd, i moved on—>to have lunch at this cute sushi place..hehe, however,after dat i suffered a huge stomach ache..not to worry, nothing can stop me now from having some fun at this point. So next off, Ant brought us to Haight-Ashbury, if u guys didnt know this was where the hippies were. Revolution and defying the government..everything is relative…hehe…?After dat, we went to Castro__ or known as gay haven. Yeah, in SF dun be alarmed when u see a cute guy squeezing a man’s ass in front of u…COS DAT IS JUST WAT I WITNESSED..(O_O)…To me, it adds some flavor the the city, vry diverse…it’s a fun place…although weird…i did see a lot of bars, tavern…more…but not wanting to explore into one…i’m underage u see…hihi. Erm, after day we went to Twin Peaks…highest point in SF i guess..eh, too foggy can’t see anything, just bunch of couples making out. Then before going home, we stopped by a vry HIGH CLASS, almost looking like Harrod’s , supermarket. Of course we were in the rich ppl’s area so no wander…i did buy something interesting,   my aunt call it "lap sap", sampah, junk like  halloween pen that lights up when u write and a skeleton pen,  an eye ball  straw and many more…good thing i could afford..cos most of the stuff is pricy man. Oh yeah, then Japantown bought some ingredients to make Futo Maki….although i think i had enought of sushi for a week. Takuan, is a must in my sushi…althou to some it’s irrelevant…no matter..Then it was back to the house, babe!

I just watched Corpse Bride with my 11 yr old cousin in Bayfair. It was okie…i guess our expectations were too high and we fell pretty hard after the movie, haha. But overall, it was good although i like Emily better than that living thing, hehe..just quite disappointed bt the ending. Johnny Depp was really into the character though. If anyone of u bought the dvd of NBC, u’ll notice the occurance of the ecentric character Vincent in Corpse Bride. Actually Time Burton is eccentric himself, being born different..i read his biography and his upbringing..no wander he became what he is today..how cool…Halloween is coming btw…more brats coming and asking for candies to total destruct themself..hehe…y we feed kids candies…to make them super hyper or to make them suffer…eh, wat am i talking abt…my class in in 10 mins…gotta go….

In sch, i’m just writing this blog to pass the time. 3 hrs per day doing nothing waiting for my other class is really dreadful. Why do ppl expect me write personal stuff on this blog, ppl dat i like, hate, not that i’ve made any new enemies or that i know of, actually have access to read this. Anyway, moving on…so calculus was a bummer, like always..sheesh, y do we need such dept understanding of math? Not like i’m gonna apply "differenciations or antiderivatives" in my daily lives. English is diff though, it gets u thinking…we learned bt Plato and such…and it was quite cool, critical thinking u know, analyzing the situation and  thinking outside the box..hehe. Racism was one of the topic we had to analyze. Vry, vry sensitive, ei…but it’s still everywhere …we just pretend it’s not there. However, all we want is to live in peace, not wanting to butt heads with others…just strolling along…living ignorantly…it’s better…we just wanna stay in the "cave me make".